Almost

I cry these tears of pain.
I scream these screams of anger.
I cut these marks of fear on my wrists.
Bloody and dying I lie on my floor.
My vision slowly fades to black.
My life slowly flashes.
The world goes blank just as I hear a voice.
I see a light and start walking towards it.
The light disappears.
My vision and feeling start coming back.
I hear my family crying and doctors rushing.
For some reason I'm still alive.
I don't want to be.
I was almost there.
I can't do anything right.
Now I see how life really is.
It wasn't my time but my time will come.
I have to die sooner or later, I like sooner better.